Rise and Shine Sister!


Who are you really? That’s the question that has been rising up into my awareness for the past several weeks. And no matter how much I attempt to set it aside, with the intention of finding a more convenient time to ponder it, the question won’t leave me alone. It’s kind of like a pesky mosquito that finds its way into your bedroom, after all the lights are out at night. You try to swat at it in the dark, or cover your head with the sheets, but eventually there comes a point where you have to get up, turn on the light, and deal with it!

So here’s my preliminary attempt at dealing with it. At surrendering to the shift of consciousness that is taking place within me and within the world. I say “the world” because this feels like it’s a part of me, and yet it’s so much bigger than me.

Woman Arches

If I look back, I can see that the Universe has been planting seeds of this shift in me for a while now. It began in earnest about 3 years ago when a DVD found me in a second hand store. The theme of the movie was the Divine Feminine, and I must have watched it at least 30 times after I brought it home. My fascination with it spurred me on to do tons of research into the feminine aspect of everything: women, men, the planet, religion, and God…to name a few. I wrote and gave a speech called, “Divine Alchemy: the Dance of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine”. And I have come to believe with every fibre of my being, that our future depends on our ability to bring the feminine back into balance with the masculine. First, by cultivating that balance within ourselves, and then bringing that balance into the world. As within, so without.

Those of you who know me well, know that my approach to bringing this balance into the world is not one of confrontation or power over. But rather one of collaboration and power with. To affect this shift, I think that we need to tap into our feminine heart to feel what needs to be done, stand solidly in our grace and power, and then call on our masculine head to implement a plan.



What’s being called forth from me now (by that pesky mosquito, lol :)) is to work with women to help them deeply remember their magnificence, and embrace their uniqueness, their power, and their special gifts. To that end, I’m hosting a 7 week online course for women that begins Feb 15/18. I had originally called it “New Year-New You!” but I’ve found that title doesn’t really reflect the deep shift in all of us, or the content that I now want to deliver. It’s not about a “new” us, but rather about the “real” us coming forward. So, I’ve renamed it “Rise and Shine Sister!” Because I believe that’s what we’re collectively being called to do. The time is now. The world is waiting for us now. It’s time to move beyond the fear, the doubt, and our past conditioning. To remember the Truth of who we all are. To rise up and stand in our full power. To let that beautiful feminine power shine everywhere in our lives. To then join with conscious men and bring balance to our planet. I know without a shadow of a doubt that we can do this. Will you join me? Let’s shift the consciousness of the planet together.

Young Women Travel Together Concept

You can sign up for the course on my website here: Workshop Registration

A Christmas Miracle

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Amidst the fear and craziness that the world would have us believe is real, I have a miracle to share with you that tells a different story. This is the kind of story that restores my faith in humanity and reminds me that love is all around us.

12 days ago my 9 month old grandson Lucian was taken to Children’s Hospital for the 2nd time in 2 days, battling pneumonia. His temperature was very high, and he was vomiting. This followed a 911 call and an ambulance ride to the hospital that had happened several weeks earlier, where he had been diagnosed with croup.

As I sat in my kitchen, watching my daughter and son-in-law get Lucian into the van and drive away, I felt helpless, and hopeless, and paralyzed with fear. My mind went back to when I was a little girl, and I remembered the terrifying middle-of-the-night trips to the hospital with my baby brother. He was turning blue. An asthma attack was constricting his airways, and he couldn’t breathe. He always looked so tiny and frail. As if the large white hospital gown was going to swallow him up, and he would disappear from my life forever.

Slowly, that memory faded from my mind, and I started to come back to the present moment. I remembered that I was not helpless. That there is always hope. I am a Reiki Master, and so I started to send distance healing to Lucian. Then I remembered that I am not alone and could ask for help. I decided to use Facebook, or as I like to call it, “the web of light”. I sent a message to the Canadian Reiki Association Facebook page, and I posted a message on my personal timeline, asking anyone who felt called to, to send love and healing energy to Lucian.

Lucian 9 mos

I was emotionally overwhelmed with the love that came pouring in. Literally hundreds of people responded to my call for help, and people are still responding. My heart was met by the hearts of many, many people. Within 24 hours, Lucian’s fever came down and he stopped vomiting. Within a few days, he had a big smile for me when I went to visit him. At his paediatrician appointment last week, his chest was all clear! And today, he turns 10 months old, and is back to being a going concern!

I don’t know where to begin to say thank you. I responded personally to every offer of love, healing energy, and prayers on Facebook. I am so very grateful to be reminded that love is stronger than fear, and when it really matters, we show what we are made of; incredible spirits having a human experience, connected by our hearts.

Baby Lucian’s family and I wish all of you a beautiful holiday season, in whatever way you choose to celebrate. For us, that’s Merry Christmas, but please feel free to translate that into whatever festive greeting warms your heart. And many blessings for a new year that brings you all that makes your heart sing.

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What Lights You Up? – Reflections on Creativity

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Machine Pieced, Hand Embellished, Machine Quilted

At a workshop last week, I asked the participants to share something with the group that really lit them up. The diversity of the shares touched my heart. One of the participants asked me to share what really lit me up. My answer, without a second of hesitation, was, “Creating intuitive fabric art!”

When I’m working in concert with the creative muse, revelling in the kaleidoscope of colour before me, and feeling the texture of the fabric as it moves through my fingers, I am in the zone. In this place I am fully in the present moment, and have no sense of time passing. The so-called ‘real world’ is the illusion, and anything associated with it becomes irrelevant. I am transported beyond the confines of the ordinary, to an extraordinary world where every possibility lies before me.

My favourite part of the whole creative process is when the piece I am working with, speaks to me. I begin with an idea of what I want to create. Eventually I get stuck, and the ideas stop flowing. At that point the muse asks me to set my ego aside, surrender, and allow the piece to tell me what it wants to be. As soon as I am able to let go of my small ideas and open up to receive, miracles happen.

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Machine Pieced, Hand Embellished, Machine Quilted

When I allow myself to be a clear channel for whatever is calling to come through me, the resulting work is divinely inspired. At the end of the process, I gaze upon my work, as if seeing it for the first time. I stand in awe, and recognize that the piece has come through me, but is not of me. And I feel such deep gratitude that the universe chose me to birth this piece of art into the world.

This is what lights me up 🙂 What lights you up?

To Be 6 Again


Today is my first granddaughter Kallie’s 6th birthday! I’m wondering where the time has gone. It seems like only yesterday that I watched, in absolute awe, as she made her grand entrance into the world. It was as if time stood still. I truly felt the presence of God that day. And not in the religious sense, but in the sense of a love of such magnitude that it took my breath away. As I witnessed this incredible being traverse her epic journey to the outside world, I realized that she may have been entering the world of the physical, but spiritually she was not quite acclimatized to this so called reality. She was so much more than just a tiny human. She was a soul of epic proportions, a bright light, braving a new lifetime, and bringing her own brand of miracles to transform our family. In the delivery room to welcome her were her mom and dad and Auntie Caitlin. As well as her Grandma (me) and her Grandpa (my ex-husband). And that was just the world of the seen. In the world of the unseen I could feel the presence of the ancestors, who were also welcoming and celebrating this beautiful soul.

In her 6 years Kallie has taught me a lot about unconditional love, and about savouring every delicious morsel of the present moment. She has shown me that perseverance is the way to realize your dreams, and that there isn’t anything in life that love can’t make better. I was wondering what words of wisdom 6 year old Kallie might offer to me at 6 years old. To little Neesie who was so sensitive, and lonely, and afraid. Or what she might say to the 6 year old inside all of us.

I think Kallie would tell the 6 year old in all of us that we matter. That we have great gifts to share with the world. That there has never been another soul like us, nor will there ever be. That the world is waiting for our unique and sacred gifts. That we are loved beyond measure, by forces seen and unseen. And mostly, that we don’t have to do life alone. I can envision Kallie taking Neesie’s hand and inviting her to play.

So, baby girl Kallie, thank you for the gift you are in my life. For the constant reminder that this life is so much more than meets the eye. Thanks for putting your tiny hand in our hands and trusting us with the gift of your life. Now, let’s go play!

Much love to you on your 6th birthday and always beautiful girl. xoxo


New Beginnings


This is my first blog post on my new blog, where my intention is to post a blog once a week! As soon as I wrote that “once a week” part, I felt the pressure inside me start to build. The self-imposed crazy rules about perfection, and duty, and getting it right. So I’m doing my best to set all of that aside, and write from my heart. My heart is my soft centre of vulnerability. The only place I can ever truly connect from. If I get out of my head and into my heart, what is it that I’d like to say to you?

First of all, that part of me is scared setting off on this new adventure of exploring and speaking and teaching about the concept of shift. Scared of putting myself out there in a bigger way than I ever have before. The introverted, introvert part of me (see explanation of this in my TEDx talk) really, really wants to cocoon on a deserted island somewhere, with a 6 month supply of books and music 🙂 Somewhere where there is no risk of rejection, or ridicule, or confrontation. And yet, the bigger part of me keeps calling, keeps encouraging, keeps asking me to step outside of my comfort zone, again and again. “Use your life,” it says to me. “Take all that you’ve lived through and shine the light of hope for other people.”

So, here I am, holding that light in somewhat shaky hands, trusting that the Universe knew what it was doing when it called me! That it chose the right person to shine that light. Trusting that I can be scared and excited at the same time, and I don’t have to be perfect to follow my calling. I just need to keep listening to my heart, feeling the fear, and doing it anyway. And doing it in a way that feels authentic to me.

I keep seeing ads everywhere promising miracles. Three steps to this, or 5 steps to that, and then you will have a 6 figure income overnight. And the hype snags me for a bit. What can I deliver to you that will create those kinds of miracles in your life? And the truth is, nothing. The miracles happen moment by moment, as you start to factor shift into your life, and engage with all of life. The great parts, and the messy parts too.

How can I serve you? I can offer you my heart, my most precious gift. So my promise to you is that if you let me take your hand, I will offer you my heart, and we can set off on this new adventure together, and see where it takes us.

For those of you in the Lower Mainland of B.C., please consider joining me at my free 2 hour live business launch and mini workshop on the evening of Thursday, November 16th in Langley BC. Spots are limited, so please pre-register on my website workshop page and I will send you the event details. Pot luck snack donations are welcome, and I will be accepting financial donations towards the Joe Webb scholarship fund. This fund enables girls between the ages of 10-14, from a disadvantaged background, to take part in leadership programs offered by Carla Webb of Empowered by Horses.

Thanks for being here, and I hope to see you in person on November 16th!

Much love,


Standing at a New Door

Original Post: Standing at a New Door


“Tell me what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” – Mary Oliver

I love this quote! It speaks to me of limitless possibility, the sanctity of life, and the miracle of being able to re-create my journey in every moment.

As some of you may know, I left my office job at the end of November. There came a day when the thought of spending another minute within the confines of my work there was almost more than I could bear. And I made a choice that day. A choice to cast off what was no longer serving, and take a step into the unknown. A choice to move outside the box and follow my soul’s calling.

So I gave my two week’s notice without having any idea of what the next step on the journey might be. And I did it, not from a place of reaction, but rather from a place of a deep inner knowing that it was time to move completely into the work I believe I came to the planet to do…to fully embody being an ambassador of hope in a world where many, many people have forgotten the Truth of who they are at a soul level. They’ve forgotten that their life matters and that they have totally unique gifts to offer humanity. They’ve forgotten that we are all connected and that love is all there is.

I’ve spent the time between the end of November and now, getting clarity on how I can best serve the world in this capacity. How do I shine light into those places of darkness that sometimes seem almost impossible to move beyond? It’s been a time of deep soul searching, stretching way beyond my comfort zone, and learning to listen to and follow my intuition. There have been tears, stand offs with my ego, conversations with myself that have my poor cat wondering if I’ve lost my mind! And in truth, I have lost my mind. It was a precursor for moving more into my heart. It’s been a process not unlike labour, this giving birth to a dream. And I am grateful for the tremendous learning within the metamorphosis.

2015 finds me standing at a beautiful new door! I have accepted the invitation to fully enter my life. The dream is still being birthed and I’m doing my best to stay fully present in each moment of its unfolding. Stay tuned…there’s a new website in process, upcoming inspirational speaking engagements to announce, new upcoming workshops in the creation phase. If you’re interested in getting more details about any of these offerings, or if you’d like to be on the newsletter distribution list for future events, and free inspirational info, please send me a message on Facebook, Google+, LinkedIn or Twitter (journey2Self).

Thank you for being on this journey with me. Each and every one of you make a difference in my life and I am grateful for you!

As you move into your new year, what’s calling you? Will you open the door and step across the threshold into your wild and precious life? I’d love to hear about your dreams.

Honouring My Mom

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Today would have been my mom’s 74th birthday if she were still here in her physical manifestation. She made her transition from this earthly realm almost 18 years ago. Our journey together was a challenging one, shaped by the distortions of alcoholism and abuse. I have lit a candle for her this morning, as I do every year. And each year I move closer and closer to joy as I reach deep into my heart to really witness the sacred dance that her and I chose this time around.

This day, I am answering your cry for love mama. I hear you and I honour you. I am forever grateful to you for your fierce love for me, and for doing the best you could with the knowledge that you had. I am strong, and brave, and compassionate, and loving because of you. I thank you for joining me in this amazing legacy of strong and heart centred women that you and the grandmothers before you began. And I thank your spirits for being with us now as we go forward in this Age of One, inviting strong, heart centered men to partner with us in our dance with life.

This song was one of my mom’s favourites. From early on, I rebelled against her love of old country music. My choice was hard rock. And then, in the last couple of years of her life, when I was beginning to soften and see her with new eyes, she introduced me to this song. In my heart it became our theme song. Mom, I love you, and I stand with you today, and every day, building bridges with love.


Proud to be your daughter.

Adventures in Online Dating!

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At the end of December, after a 3 month whirlwind courtship that began on Facebook, I declined an invitation to be the financial donor in a romance scam 🙂 Then, I made the very uncharacteristic move of signing up for a one month membership on an online dating sight. At this point, those of you who know me well are probably double checking to make sure that this post is actually from me! I’ve been on my own for several years now, and the decision to step into the rabbit hole of online dating was not an easy one for me. I had to get past my own judgements and antiquated ideas of the “right” way to meet a potential partner. And I had to get beyond a comment one of my daughters had made several years ago about online dating being the last refuge of the truly desperate!

I had been thinking on and off in the last year that it would be an amazing gift to have a partner in my life again. It is such an honour to have a witness to your life and to be able to be the witness and support in another’s life. And I felt like I had unpacked enough of my own baggage to be able to enter clearly into a new relationship. Then along came “Michael” (most likely not his real name). He told me all the things I wanted to hear and for the first time in my life I truly opened my heart up wide to love. That heart opening shed light on all the baggage I had unknowingly hidden under the bed for years. And so, the truth is that even though the connection from Facebook turned out to be a scam, I am eternally grateful for the gifts of awareness the encounter bestowed on me. Because of “Michael”, I have been unpacking and releasing the remnants of the old suitcases of “self-doubt”, “fear of intimacy”, “distorted body image”, “protective wall around my heart”, “fear of men”. Baggage I would not have known still existed without him as the catalyst. In his own way he has helped me to pave the way for the next great love of my life, by showing me all of the barriers I had put up to prevent myself from recognizing, and welcoming that love with open arms, when it arrives.

If life is a mirror for me, and I truly believe that it is, then I must ask myself some difficult questions if I’m going to walk my talk: What is the romance scam mirroring back to me; What was my part in the dance; Where am I seeking external validation for Truths about me that I am not acknowledging within myself; Where am I not being 100% authentic in my life? I don’t have all the answers yet, but I’m totally willing and open to receive them as they come to me. And I have faith that they will come…in God’s timing…not Denise’s timing!

What I’m most excited about in all of this is that I did not allow my disappointment to close my heart again. I continue to say “Yes!” to life, in all its messiness and seeming imperfection, and I say “Yes!” to love. So…how far down the rabbit hole will I choose to go? The answer is: All the way. As Helen Keller once said, “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.”

New Year’s Day 2013

New Year’s Day 2013
Photo Credit: Caitlin Mellor Photography 


2012 has been a year of learning and growth for me. Most times it felt like anything that was no longer serving me was coming up front and centre, at warp speed, to be healed and released! And then there were the other times; the periods of respite…times spent totally in the moment with my beautiful granddaughter. Times when I remembered the Truth of who I really am…a spirit having a human experience. There’s something about being in the presence of total innocence and trust that softens me, cracks my heart wide open to love, and helps me transcend the ego’s reality, for the Reality of Spirit.

So many new connections last year. Reaching out beyond my comfort zone again and again. Finding kindred spirits all over the world. Souls determined to spread more love in the universe despite what appear to be overwhelming odds against it. And I marvel at the synchronicity in the meetings. Some on Facebook, some via e-mail, some in person. Towards the end of the year, the possibility of having a partner again in my life arrived. While it appears at the moment that the relationship will not result in the spiritual partnership I had envisioned, I will be forever grateful to him for bringing up all of my blocks to love and my mistaken beliefs about men and relationship. In some ways, and on some days, it feels like our connection to each other as humans is so fragile and tenuous, and yet another part of me knows that we’ve always been together in spirit. There is no separation…we are all One.

As we begin this new age of One, where the Divine Feminine walks lovingly and equally, hand in hand with the Magnificent Masculine, please know that I have deep gratitude for each and every one of you who have touched my life in the past year. I look forward, with an open heart to the infinite possibilities available to all of us as we take the first steps into this brave new world. Thank you for being in my life. It matters that you are here.

Pausing Before the Exhale

Original Post: Pausing Before the Exhale

I love the week between Christmas and the New Year! There is a beauty and a stillness in the non-doingness…a calm, centred place of just being. A quiet inner knowing that all is well, no matter what external circumstances might indicate. A breathing in of all that has happened in the last year, then the breath held briefly in anticipation, just before the exhale into all that is waiting to be birthed in the new year.

It’s been an interesting year of change for us all. It feels like more and more, we are re-membering and shifting into the Truth of who we are. Sometimes that process has felt easeful, and at other times, more challenging. I received the gift of a car accident at the end of July, that quite literally stopped me in my tracks for two months. The resulting whiplash and concussion rattled my body and brain. It left me in a place of being, because I could not put two thoughts together to do anything! The downtime gave me the opportunity to ask myself a lot of questions.

How did I want to put the pieces of my life back together? And were there some pieces that no longer served and were best left to fall away? I began to realize that my former sense of urgency to get things done had been ego driven. And with that I started to relax into listening to the guidance of Spirit and only taking action when prompted by Spirit. Divine timing…not my timing! As I let go of my plans and allowed myself to come fully into each moment I began to experience more moments of peace and harmony.

Then I was gifted with the birth of my granddaughter Kallie in November. Looking into her angelic face reminds me of miracles. She is beauty, innocence, and pure love; all of the things we all are, but have sometimes forgotten. As I watched her make her physical entrance into the world, her spiritual connection with God/Goddess was palpable in the room. It was almost as if she had not fully landed yet on this plane. Her connection to All That Is had not yet been completely veiled. In that moment, and in many moments since, she has reminded me that life is a gift, and that it is possible to experience heaven on earth, by simply being all of who I am.

As this new year begins, I am choosing to remember that I am beauty, innocence and pure love, and that I am connected to All That Is. I am choosing to live more from my heart and less from my head. And it is my intention to continue the dance with joy and gratitude and grace. What are you choosing? May we all re-birth the Highest versions of who we are, in the amazing way that only each of us can. It matters that we are here because we each bring our own unique pieces of heaven on earth. Thank you for being on this journey with me. Namaste.